About Me

I’ve been searching to fill a void—seeking approval, status, acceptance, and a sense of belonging. My career as a creative director and entrepreneur didn’t satisfy my soul’s needs—not even a little. Eventually, I took stock of my life and realized that most of my choices were rooted in fear or a desire to impress, rather than a true longing for happiness or fulfilment.

At the core of my suffering was a deep belief that I wasn’t enough. I thought I needed to be fixed by a therapist, plastic surgeon, healer, teacher, shaman, guru, or through many plant medicine ceremonies. For over a decade, I immersed myself in various modalities: therapy, healing diets, trauma courses, ceremonies, yoga, fasting, meditation, and the study of the ancient Tantras.

I cycled through countless programs, often meditating for hours a day, filling every minute with mantras and teachings, believing that was the “work”. At the time, I saw the length of my practice and the discipline I maintained as signs of spiritual health. I also placed my self-worth in the courses, certificates, and titles I thought would make me legitimate.

With time, I’ve come to see that it’s the in-between moments—the quiet, unstructured ones—that truly reflect where I am. It’s in how I listen to and care for myself.
• Am I aligned in my body, emotions, and mind?
•  Do I remember my highest self?
• Am I able to soften into my humanness?
•  Can I remember that I am a fragment of Source/God/Universe, submerged in matter?

My suffering has been a profound teacher. It led me to the gift of turning inward, creating space for self-retreat—to truly listen, feel, and welcome the emotions I had long suppressed in fear. That act of simply being with myself has become a portal. Life, in every direction, continues to invite me into deeper presence.

These days, I’m most inspired by the magical technologies of the body, mind, and spirit through Qigong, and treating my life as my ultimate experiment and test lab to see how it resonates. Thank you to all the teachers who have shared their generous gifts. We are always connected—especially to the unseen worlds. The source of my joy is no longer something outside of me—it’s in the wonder of being myself, and uniquely experiencing life through me. 

I am a forever student of life, feeling called to share and contribute to our community and collective evolution. If you feel drawn, you’re warmly invited to join us in this shared remembrance—Together Alone.

With love,
Leah XX